JUST AM
| "JUST AM" | |
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| track 2 from SLEEP CYCLE (2016) by DEAKIN | |
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Length: 8:08 | |
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Standing in the desert
Faces stare back from the dunes
Brought here by courage or delusion
I won't stop but I feel ripping mad
So I am crying words
That don't make sense to me or them
But I am singing, I am singing
Beams the child inside then disappears again
Still I go on repeating words of loss and failure
Of every choice that I gave up to guardian anger
But I hope that you can feel life
'Cause even watching descent I see light
But I recall I called you hate
Repeated words get locked and phased
And these words attach some words like stone
You find with time, you build more than sow
You build a house, you build what you know
I wonder if that's home
I wonder if that's home
I...
Tangled up at home
Unloved intentions All I see
All those collected stacked and fretted
Over treasures leave me spinning so
I'll leave the door wide open
My old friend there's more unfound
It's time for letting wounds and breaking through
These pretty patterned knots I twist around
Dad, I can't see, I've lost my voice, I need direction
Reweighed each choice so many times I've lost reflection
You've got to let go so you'll grow
Then even when you feel blind you'll still know
So I asked again
When I get home can I build space
And clear these ripples of disorder
And erosion, I feel nipping mad
And when I find my way
Through all discolor in my mind
Swear I'll never leave imbalance
Or impatience standing guard or keeping time
'Cause I hold on to things that dearly need replacing
Broken time ruling pain and failed aging
When I let go
I just am
Conjured back to myself
I just am
I'm holding on
I've grown too tight
My joints are cracked
My eyes gone white
Stop holding
Don't wait too long
Your face is sown
Your fears won't fail
And new ones will show
Only steps you take
Will help you to grow
And when I hope
I hope I'm home
I'll step inside
And I'll feel grown
If only
Don't wait for safe
Just fall inside
And wisely for-
getting to take
That treasured stain
You've always relied
I wonder what you'll show
I wonder what you'll show
I wonder what you'll show
I wonder what you'll show
I...